He is afraid and I am not.
I was told I was going to die. My treatment was not working. I met someone who believed I would live. I worked with him and others around him. I felt blessed and I let go.
I lived.
This is not meant to be a bitter post and I hope it does not sound that way. My husband always scoffed at anything beyond the scope of what he could see. He still does. He thinks if he has a woman beside him that wants to have sex and if he makes 6 figures then it will all be okay.
I know different. I have felt peace and tranquility and acceptance for a long time now. I firmly believe it is why I am alive to spend mornings with my daughter as she gets ready for school. I know where to find beauty. To answer my own question...it has not all been revealed to me. But I know if I work hard enough on myself and on my world it will be.